im tired of life im more of surviving than living it

I honestly get it. I feel like I'm just pushing the days forward as they come. I don't do anything productive. Life seems dull and meaningless. Which makes me hate life so much. And then it gets to a point where you despise life so much you start living the best life out of spite . Try to hang around till then.



(I'm sorry for the rant and if this doesn't make any sense)