This is actually good if you're looking for something psychologically fucked up. The way Dan's thoughts spiral, when he was thinking "If I just let it have everything it wants, maybe it'll be fine" I almost cried. That's literally what most rape victims and victims of abuse think. If they just gave in maybe it'll be easier but it never is. (just like how Dan constantly feels the touch of Killian even though he isn't there) No amount of scrubbing yourself clean will really get that filth off of you and it's enough to feel helpless. The way he was slowly losing himself but believing that it was the right thing to sacrifice himself so that the monster wouldn't kill, yet smelling the stench of blood from Killian either way... could he be killing but not letting Dan know? or is it that Dan couldn't get the smell of blood out of his mind because he knows all of the killing happened because of him and his promise to the monster? (but the monster is called the monster for a reason. Dan was never to blame yet he's shouldering that burden because he knows there's no escape.)
Man when it showed Colin's dead body(even if it wasn't true) I shivered. If Dan had told anyone, they would've just been implicated. So suffering alone was probably for the better. Just like how victims of SA are unable to ask for help because the perpetrators usually threaten the lives of their loved ones. There is just no escaping, so it's better to let it happen to you than anyone else. At least that's what I believe he was thinking ┗( T﹏T )┛
This is actually good if you're looking for something psychologically fucked up. The way Dan's thoughts spiral, when he was thinking "If I just let it have everything it wants, maybe it'll be fine" I almost cried. That's literally what most rape victims and victims of abuse think. If they just gave in maybe it'll be easier but it never is. (just like how Dan constantly feels the touch of Killian even though he isn't there) No amount of scrubbing yourself clean will really get that filth off of you and it's enough to feel helpless. The way he was slowly losing himself but believing that it was the right thing to sacrifice himself so that the monster wouldn't kill, yet smelling the stench of blood from Killian either way... could he be killing but not letting Dan know? or is it that Dan couldn't get the smell of blood out of his mind because he knows all of the killing happened because of him and his promise to the monster? (but the monster is called the monster for a reason. Dan was never to blame yet he's shouldering that burden because he knows there's no escape.)
Man when it showed Colin's dead body(even if it wasn't true) I shivered. If Dan had told anyone, they would've just been implicated. So suffering alone was probably for the better. Just like how victims of SA are unable to ask for help because the perpetrators usually threaten the lives of their loved ones. There is just no escaping, so it's better to let it happen to you than anyone else. At least that's what I believe he was thinking ┗( T﹏T )┛