Gosh I relate so much to Elliot

This is the first time I read a manhwa wherein it portrays sex addiction quite clearly. It isn’t just wanting to be fucked, it damages your mindset and even your relationships. just like what Elliot said I would walk into alleyways thinking to be raped and used by the people in it. It’s gotten to a point where I would fantasize even my own family.

I would feel disgusted with myself but I would return to that routine. I tried speaking about it to my family but I’m scared of seeing their disgusted expressions. My family is kind but they’re conservative too. Whenever I would see my friends chatting happily I would feel ashamed of my thoughts. Even if I excelled in my academics, in the back of my mind I would hope to be humiliated and used without my consent.

I think the cause of this was when I discovered nudes and porn hub since then it has spiraled from there. Now I fear the risk of getting discovered. I want to get therapy but I worry about what others think.