I'm not quite sure of you were replying to me, if so I'm sorry for the late reply. I think that we don't get to understand much on why they think or say some things while talking to each other because most of the chapters are the "all age version". I believe some s scenes contain important conversations between the two main characters. But we don't know because it's cut out. (I hope this made sense?!?!)

They haven't posted the 18+ version after so many years (since 2021)? Anyways, I feel like we're missing on a lot of context about what they're feeling and thinking but we don't know that because it mostly happens during "those" scenes. I was losing so many brain cells trying to understand and hope this comment motivates them to post the official 18+ version ╥﹏╥