Because I'm old and that what usually happens. When I want to do smth it is always becomes unavailable.
Like, I've finished university in 2019 and wanted to work and travel, but got sick by the top 1 virus of 2020 and
my hands stopped working, I couldn't even hold a cup. I was recovering for 2 years.
0 money, I lived with my parents.
When I finally recovered I wanted to get a job in Europe, BC in my country my salary was like 300$ per month, and guess what?
2022, I'm a Russian citizen, sanctions against me, not against people who started the sh1t. Their children have dual citizenship of France, Germany, Switzerland, but I can't even get a job on a farm BC of the sanctions xD
This is only 0,00001% of life.
If you want smth do it today, BC tomorrow may never come

i should have marinated this for a year or more ╥﹏╥ i really wish that the dad would save her ╥﹏╥