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i'm looking for a yaoi manga i lost in the great hollowing. i don't really remember much about the plot or characters. i think they start out as friends, where one of them has a crush on the other - not sure if it was confessed but i think it was? they don't do anything about it for a while at least. the mc (the top i think) has a few insecurities or troubles which he finds the ml's presence helps to make better or something.

the pair often spend the night together, not doing anything sexual, just in the company of each other. what i do remember clearly, is how the mc one night has the ml blow him, quite violently or abruptly, which upsets him and the ml ends up sleeping on the couch? i just remember really liking it up till then and found the scene really surprising and abrupt considering the rest of the flow. they do of course make up and all that, as usual.