Maybe because it is awkward ¯_(ツ)_/¯ It didn't feel awkward to me but I was in awe at how beautiful and emotional their first time was. But that's just my opinion. Once you get to later chapters their flow gets stronger, even more physical. Kishar is a mega green flag so he will always prioritize Yoder's comfort and safety above all else but as they get closer they do become more hotter. But this is just the opinion of one crazy fan of the novel. I hope you keep reading

I’ve been reading the novel (currently around chapter 400) and i have kind of mixed feelings about Yuder and Kishar.
I love slowburn and a strong plot, and I really like the worldbuilding so far.
I love Yuder and his relationships with the other characters, especially Enon, which I’m really curious to read more about.
But when it comes to the intimate scenes between Yuder and Kishar, it just feels weird maybe? I’m kind of annoyed at myself that I don’t feel it, because the slowburn and their dialogue are actually really good. So why do I feel like this?
I don’t really feel the chemistry, and those scenes sometimes seems a bit awkward. Its not in a “it’s on purpose” way, it just feels awkward to me.
I’ve been wondering why I feel like this? One thought I had is whether it could be the writing style. Sometimes it feels a bit overly “purple, flowery prose.” I can follow everything just fine and the writing is good, but sometimes it might be a bit too much for me. I mean yea it’s very beautiful, but still…
English is not my first language, but I don’t think that’s the reason
i’m also wondering if it could be because the novel is originally written in Korean, and the translation into English can feel a bit off when trying to keep the tone, but i have no idea
Maybe it’s just a “me thing,” I don’t know. I can see all the elements are there, which is why it’s kind of frustrating that I don’t feel it.
So I’m just curious how others experienced it. Did it click for you at some point, or did anyone feel something similar? But either way I can really see why people love this story so much!