Gurl, that is her being insecure okay,
It was the fact that she surpasses her, she defeats her, and then she said "it wouldn't change the fact she always behind"???? That just how she badly insecure she is with her own abilities and always think she can't defeat her , Which is bad because she never realises that,
It true that she chooses different path now but that insecurity which the main problem still there

What a disappointment ending, you fighting for so many long and force yourself to get a win ,
But you end up give it up instead win even tho it just one step ahead?
Instead of embracing the win and move away with your insecurities, you think give up that win and and accept you have unlimited insecurities , just fucking ridiculous girl,
This should fight should be the evidence you are on your own fight and she have her own way, you should be bright for yourself GURL
Instead you saying you always feel her shadow AND YOU GIVE UP THE WIN !? Oh stupidity