I'm kinda like this i think. Weird and stuff. And when I'm socializing it's like I'm even faking joy. Ok that sounds like I'm dark sigma male. I'm not. Very much a female here ok. So it's like I'm doing too many calculations in my head and notice even the slightest change and just go yeah they're annoyed and then I take it personally and try to steer clear of them until they're not so strange with me and I'm suddenly like yeah this person's cool i can approach them and the cycle repeats. I laugh too hard in convos cuz it's fake and idek when to stop laughing so I just immediately drop it and it's weird. Haven't really felt funny and laughed properly in a while now. It's like my social skills just disappeared. I'm like atami but an uglier version both physically and like just having inferiority complex and some jealousy and stuff
I'm kinda like this i think. Weird and stuff. And when I'm socializing it's like I'm even faking joy. Ok that sounds like I'm dark sigma male. I'm not. Very much a female here ok. So it's like I'm doing too many calculations in my head and notice even the slightest change and just go yeah they're annoyed and then I take it personally and try to steer clear of them until they're not so strange with me and I'm suddenly like yeah this person's cool i can approach them and the cycle repeats. I laugh too hard in convos cuz it's fake and idek when to stop laughing so I just immediately drop it and it's weird. Haven't really felt funny and laughed properly in a while now. It's like my social skills just disappeared. I'm like atami but an uglier version both physically and like just having inferiority complex and some jealousy and stuff