I feel ya. Here is my list, no rape or abuse to love trope: https://www.mangago.me/home/mangalist/1683240/
https://www.mangago.me/home/mangalist/3781029/ I hope my list is up to ur liking! (Also if u see this pls tell me if u can see the like descriptions that I put for each one in my list)

wanting to read a new bl and going to the comment section just to see “rape in chap14” “ml rapes mc” “ml is so shitty the redemption wasn’t enough” lord someone actually recommend me something good pls