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Eating disorder

Yaoilynn September 28, 2017 1:42 pm

Hey! (⌒▽⌒)
I'm sorry, it's gonna be pretty long..
I'm 15 and I am just another yaoist here, but recently I've been struggling with binge eating/bulimia.
I don't even know how it all started. I always ate a bit more than I should, but I was never fat, maybe I had a few extra kilograms, but nothing serious.
Then I started to change my diet, workout and I lost weight, gained muscle.
But it was hard to eat all the time healthy, so cheat days became more and more often.
Not just cheat days, I just ate all day. Literally. Huge amount of food.
I never really vomited it out even when I tried, it was much more difficult than I thought it would be.
Since then, I started to binge eat.
At first, it happened about one or two times per month. Then it was every two weeks. And then almost every day.
It was extreme, so I tried really hard and stopped. Well at least for some time.
As you can see, now I binge eat again. And yes, almost every day.
I can't eat unhealthy stuff, because once I start to eat it, I can't stop.
My problem are also my parents, especially my mother. I told her about it, she understood, but I stopped eating all 'normal' food. I eat only really healthy. She eats healthy as well, but.. She can't understand. She thinks that in reality I have anorexia or something. That my problems are just an excuse. Of course it's not the truth.
So now, when I start to binge eat, she is so happy I eat at least something she starts to give me even more food, which is of course SO bad for me in that situation, because she thinks I don't eat at all.
I'm really scared, considering seeing a specialist.
I just don't really know what to do. I'm really sad. I want to be healthy, but I'm too weak to cure myself alone.

Responses
    Anon September 28, 2017 2:10 pm

    I think it would be good to connect with people on instagram! I know a few people who are confused and lost about their eating disorder but have found comfort in the words pf others who are in a similar situation!

    All the best!!!

    Yoss69 September 28, 2017 2:10 pm

    hello darling
    my name is yousra i'm 21 years old i've struggled with my weight and my physical appearance since i can remember ...the only thing my dear i can say to is to seek professional help and if you can't at least search in internet maybe you can find some informations that could be useful . the only thing i can say to you and it might be helpful , is look for ways of distraction eat healthy ,take long walks with your friend or pet , and don't feel ashamed of who you are be proud and try to found your comfort zone and invite others to it
    hope the best for you (〜 ̄△ ̄)〜

    Uglycanary September 28, 2017 2:53 pm

    I've got similar problems. It started with restricted eating a few years ago, back then my obsession about my weight was fueled by my mother who praised me for losing weight even though I was already at a really healthy weight. Thanks to a friend I snapped out of it before I was at a point where I had to get professional help. However, due to my mental health getting worse over the years and my worsening depression I slipped into a binge eating disorder plus some other stuff. I've finally spoken up about it and I'm going to see a professional in a few weeks... I encourage you to get professional help as well. Once you are at a certain point it is almost impossible to help yourself and I had to learn that the hard way. Don't wait any longer and get help as soon as possible.

    mu-chan September 28, 2017 2:54 pm

    Hi..! First, i wanna ask you. Why do you want to have a diet..? Because of your appearance ..? I just have a feeling that , you never experience such worries about getting fat. But now you build your muscle. For what..? Why must you do that..? Is that because of your friends influence or not..? Mostly there will be these answers when you decided to have a diet : 1) you have some kind of degenerative desease or
    just risk genetically and your doctor said you have to do some diets 2) standar of society, their value of being handsome and beautiful.

    My friend, mostly people who have bulimia problem, they simply dont have enough self confidence. They dunno how to love and accept themself, their negative side and possitive side. They scared of people around them talking bad about their appearance and they tried so hard to meet society expectation.
    I think first you need to ask to your inner self, truthfully, why are you feeling insecure with your appearance right now... Thats my solution

    Anonymous September 28, 2017 3:29 pm

    You need to see some one who area is eating disorder. Each person is diff. and each prob, may need a diff. approach, seeing a doc. can help you get a handle on the problem. seek a recommended therapy group for support, some of these online chat groups may make things worse. You need see doc. bec. you may have an underlying depression or some other cause. that is just my thoughts.

    Yaoilynn September 28, 2017 6:13 pm

    Thank you so much everyone(๑•ㅂ•)و✧(づ ̄ ³ ̄)づ(▰˘◡˘▰)
    I myself probably wasn't bothered by my body that much, but other people said to me
    I'm fat.
    Of course it could change the way I felt about myself, I started thinking about it way too much.
    But in reality I was never really fat. My height is 172 cm and currently I weight 58 kg, back then I weighed 64 kg.
    I decided to change my lifestyle because I always hated sport and I was very weak at it. I wanted to get stronger, more confident and finally completely happy.
    And it was a success. I was never more confident in my whole life. Now I am happy. But together really sad.
    I don't understand why I am doing it. But now I am not alone.
    After writing my question I binge eated again. I've had enough of it so I told my mum.
    She cried, I cried and it got pretty serious. Anyway, she understood, said, why she thought I was anorexic, I understood and together we decided to see a professional.

    Sincerely thank you all for your kind words and advices. It helped me a lot. Thanks to that, I was able to tell my mother and do something about it.
    Finally I am brave enough to fight it.

    mu-chan September 28, 2017 6:52 pm
    Thank you so much everyone(๑•ㅂ•)و✧(づ ̄ ³ ̄)づ(▰˘◡˘▰)I myself probably wasn't bothered by my body that much, but other people said to meI'm fat. Of course it could change the way I felt ... Yaoilynn

    Wishing the best for you , friend..
    Being healthy is good. Outside and inside. Not only your body, your innerself too. U dun have to set a limit for yourself, dun need to so hard to yourself. Everything is about balance. Eat whatever you want, do sport what ever you want, enough sleep, enough water, praying everyday... Just let it be in balance, you'll be fine

    Uglycanary September 28, 2017 8:01 pm
    Thank you so much everyone(๑•ㅂ•)و✧(づ ̄ ³ ̄)づ(▰˘◡˘▰)I myself probably wasn't bothered by my body that much, but other people said to meI'm fat. Of course it could change the way I felt ... Yaoilynn

    I'm glad you decided to talk to your mother about it, I know how hard it is... but things will definitely get better from here on. Let's work hard and do our best, it will be worth it. I'll cheer you on!