Glad I didn't give up on this one, and believe me I ditched it 7 times over the years LMAO (I was bored)
For almost 60 chapters straight, Jk just seemed awful and brute. It wasn't fun to read through as it seemed like pointless cruelty with no end. After chapter 60, it finally seemed like something had started to shift in his stubborn, steadfast head. His brief backstory explains why he went about adopting such an air about himself. A brooding mass of ill temper and no regard for others. Held steady by a constant drive to remain focused and to avoid distraction in order to push himseld past his limits (albeit at the cost of everyone around him). I can hardly blame him for it seeing where he came from and yet, I don't condone whatever he has done to innocent Dan, but I sympathise with his reasons for doing so. He's distrustful of everyone around him. Even those closest to him. Growing up as he did, I can hardly blame him for what he developed into. Jk has been in survival mode ever since he was little. That would break some, and shape others into a hardened shell. He finds himself at the literal peak of egocentricism.
Anyway, his cruel ways, albeit the only way he seemed to know how, had definitely started to leave a bad taste in my mouth. So, naturally, I love seeing how he slowly starts to recognize his toxic patterns for a great 30 chapters and willfully decides to be and do better. His guilt was pretty well reflected from chapter 60 on out. To me, his distress came of as sincere (good, he needs to suffer a bit longer). I still don't think it's enough, but it's a start.
One can't change overnight, it's a process. And if his feelings for Dan, and the heartfelt advice from his first coach finally pulled him out of that hole he dug himself into, then I feel like this was my time well spent LOL. Hence there's more show instead of tell. And, no, not swarming Dan in designer shit. Jk has got to invest that money into mirrors for every corner in the house, so he can take a good look at himself and reflect in misery and yearning.
Glad I didn't give up on this one, and believe me I ditched it 7 times over the years LMAO (I was bored)
For almost 60 chapters straight, Jk just seemed awful and brute. It wasn't fun to read through as it seemed like pointless cruelty with no end. After chapter 60, it finally seemed like something had started to shift in his stubborn, steadfast head. His brief backstory explains why he went about adopting such an air about himself. A brooding mass of ill temper and no regard for others. Held steady by a constant drive to remain focused and to avoid distraction in order to push himseld past his limits (albeit at the cost of everyone around him). I can hardly blame him for it seeing where he came from and yet, I don't condone whatever he has done to innocent Dan, but I sympathise with his reasons for doing so. He's distrustful of everyone around him. Even those closest to him. Growing up as he did, I can hardly blame him for what he developed into. Jk has been in survival mode ever since he was little. That would break some, and shape others into a hardened shell. He finds himself at the literal peak of egocentricism.
Anyway, his cruel ways, albeit the only way he seemed to know how, had definitely started to leave a bad taste in my mouth. So, naturally, I love seeing how he slowly starts to recognize his toxic patterns for a great 30 chapters and willfully decides to be and do better. His guilt was pretty well reflected from chapter 60 on out. To me, his distress came of as sincere (good, he needs to suffer a bit longer). I still don't think it's enough, but it's a start.
One can't change overnight, it's a process. And if his feelings for Dan, and the heartfelt advice from his first coach finally pulled him out of that hole he dug himself into, then I feel like this was my time well spent LOL. Hence there's more show instead of tell. And, no, not swarming Dan in designer shit. Jk has got to invest that money into mirrors for every corner in the house, so he can take a good look at himself and reflect in misery and yearning.