Ok so I found the novel and oh boi

I'm definitely dropping this as the story is just awful i feel like i wasted a hour of my life in reading it. I was unsure about posting spoilers but i thought it would be better for yall to know before you waste time too. Be warned there is rape and attempted gang rape

Mc and ml keep their whole act of being a couple so that ml can get his inspo. In chapters with ml's pov we found out that he's using mc as he wants to quit being an actor and become a writer but all his works get rejected. There's another writer in the same company who has success and he hates how he's losing to them so his solution is using someone to make his writing more realistic

After a while mc can't help but fall for ml, he confesses but ml keep his answer vague and replies he'll think about it.
That's when a junior or mc asks for a 'favor', knowing he'll say yes bc of his trauma. Mc is taken in a dark alley and almost gang raped by other juniors, he is saved by ml but actually not really bc in a fit of jealousy ml takes mc home and rapes him, mc is so out of it that he doesn't even realize what happened

Days later ml understands he reacted like that bc he was jealous and he actually loves mc so he goes to him and confessed his feelings, mc is super happy as if the rape never happened. Ml has sex with him again saying it's his way of making up

Mc goes back to uni and finds out a photo of him of when he was almost raped was put on the board, his junior + the other who were there act like nothing happened and mc thinks they're good people after all (???)
Mc and ml start dating and during the school festival they have sex, days later ml suddenly breaks up with mc giving 0 explanation

Mc meets with that same junior again and he finds out he had taken pics of mc and ml while having sex that day of the festival, the junior's goal is causing a reaction from the ml bc as an actor he always had perfect control over his feelings (honesty what a sh1t reason for doing sh1tty things)
Side note about ml, his style of acting is basically erasing himself to become 100% his role which makes it seem like he doesn't have a real personality, that was before mc who made him realize he could be liked by just being himself

A friend of that junior then reveals to mc that he was always like that and ruined many people, he takes pleasure into making other suffer.
Mc understands the junior did all this bc his target was ml so he and the junior's friend run to ml, who was being blackmailed by junior with the photos
Junior's friend loses it and punches him, junior is super happy bc he caused that burst of feelings from his friend and everyone understand that he was the true target

Mc and ml have a talk and get back together then proceed to have sex again.
After school break ends everything is back to normal except for junior who dropped out and mc feels sorry for him for some weird reason
Ml decided to keep being an actor bc thanks to mc he learned how to express his true emotions and his acting improved even more, on the side he's still, writing bc novels tho
Mc and ml are finally happy and once again they confess to each other. END