Ngl I wanna know too! Especially to know if she regrets it (if she actually loved the FL) and all Lihua
She loved her as a child but parents forget to love their children the same way while raising them in the name of education. There is no denying that she wuld grieve because with death, all expectations die and only the memories stay.
I wonder how her mom's in modern times react when she know her daughter was dead