These manga are pretty old, like from the 70s/80s, but they're ones of the most tragic stories I have ever read
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/zankoku_na_kami_ga_shihai_suru/
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/kaze_to_ki_no_uta/
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/heart_of_thomas/
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/will_you_let_me_stay_here/
https://www.mangago.me/read-
manga/hitori_to_hitori_no_3650nichi/
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/double_suicide/
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/boys_next_door/
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/asa_to_mitya/
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/sayonara_no_moment/
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/stigma_marloong/
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/mihanada_pectolite/
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/an_uncomfortable_truth/
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/haruka_tooki_ie/

So anyone got so suicide or self harm BL. I kind of just want a story I can cry to. I have already read yang ill woo and I or whatever the name of that story was. Anything is fine for trauma pls just keep it BL.