So like I just read this in its entirety and I honestly don’t know why I guess I had hope it would turn around but nope.
I will have to say thought what upsets me most is that despite it being literal fetishisation this is one of the most realistic portrayals of the aftermath of rape I have ever seen. And I think that bothers me a lot.
But what upsets me more is the ending. If everything had been the same except for the ending I would already be happier. I was reading the last few chapters with such hope for it to take a turn but it didn’t. At like a certain point I didn’t even hope anymore that MC (who deserved exactly none of this) would get better cause I just felt that there was no chance.
But what I really didn’t want was for that blond monster to get his way. That is what I hoped for. I wanted him to be so close to his goal and then be forced to watch it slip through his fingers. I wanted him to just come home one day and instead of a being greeted by his loyal traumatised victim I wanted him to be greeted by a corpse. (Not cause I full on wanted MC to die, even though it at this point may be the most merciful option, like he deserves piece) I wanted to see the look on his face when he realises that his plan didn’t work. I wanted to see him be destroyed by the fact that he, yes I want him to realise it, killed the man that he claimed to love. I wanted to see the will to live leave his eyes and be replaced by utter despair.
And then I wanted it to end right there. I didn’t want to know if he would continue to live with the guilt or if he would kill himself to join MC in death. He doesn’t deserve to have an end to his story.
Yeah anyway if you read all this wow. I just needed to vent. Hope you enjoyed my alternate ending ig. And if you didn’t please tell me that it’s not cause blondie gets hurt cause like I really really hate that bastard. (Though that was probs pretty obvious) (My first time making one of these btw I usually don’t do this but like this made me do it. That’s how much I hate that guy.)
So like I just read this in its entirety and I honestly don’t know why I guess I had hope it would turn around but nope.
I will have to say thought what upsets me most is that despite it being literal fetishisation this is one of the most realistic portrayals of the aftermath of rape I have ever seen. And I think that bothers me a lot.
But what upsets me more is the ending. If everything had been the same except for the ending I would already be happier. I was reading the last few chapters with such hope for it to take a turn but it didn’t. At like a certain point I didn’t even hope anymore that MC (who deserved exactly none of this) would get better cause I just felt that there was no chance.
But what I really didn’t want was for that blond monster to get his way. That is what I hoped for. I wanted him to be so close to his goal and then be forced to watch it slip through his fingers. I wanted him to just come home one day and instead of a being greeted by his loyal traumatised victim I wanted him to be greeted by a corpse. (Not cause I full on wanted MC to die, even though it at this point may be the most merciful option, like he deserves piece) I wanted to see the look on his face when he realises that his plan didn’t work. I wanted to see him be destroyed by the fact that he, yes I want him to realise it, killed the man that he claimed to love. I wanted to see the will to live leave his eyes and be replaced by utter despair.
And then I wanted it to end right there. I didn’t want to know if he would continue to live with the guilt or if he would kill himself to join MC in death. He doesn’t deserve to have an end to his story.
Yeah anyway if you read all this wow. I just needed to vent. Hope you enjoyed my alternate ending ig. And if you didn’t please tell me that it’s not cause blondie gets hurt cause like I really really hate that bastard. (Though that was probs pretty obvious)
(My first time making one of these btw I usually don’t do this but like this made me do it. That’s how much I hate that guy.)