This made me so sad back then but I can’t really feel it too much now even if it is sad ...

This made me so sad back then but I can’t really feel it too much now even if it is sad because… well it’s a teacher and a student relationship and I feel like the teacher’s love is more regret of not able to save her student than her truly falling in love with her. I wanna say the teacher’s love is platonic but growing flowers doesn’t feel one and more on romantic connotation. Would’ve been better as a student x student or teacher x teacher and it would’ve impacted me harder than this but I love the idea of like the opposite vers of hanahaki disease