Thats the part that confused me too like at least go for some guy who looks likes him if ur gonna sleep around while being in "love" (doubt) with this person u seem to always think about. Honestly manga writers love writing hetero manwhore tops who only specially are gay for the uke cuz a man cant possibly be queer and palatable for a straight female audience's fetishistic tastes can he? Its odd as hell

of the trope 'i love that person since forever but im gonna sleep with as many people as possible', that just leaves me with a bitter taste :/
Top was coward af both then and now, I feel sorry for the mc