I really wished the author left this it was and no matter how much I want to drop this, I ...

I really wished the author left this it was and no matter how much I want to drop this, I just really want them to go back to how they were before and for the author to tell us what really happened to him for him to disappear for that long. I’m just hoping it’s not because he was SAd :( even tho I’m pretty sure that’s how it all went