How do I expect connections When I leave people on read , Type replies and delete them , And convince myself they won't understand anyway? I say I want someone to stay , But I go quiet for days And call it "just being tired" Like it doesnt slowly push everyone out of my life . Its not that I don't care - Its that I don't know how to show it Without feeling exposed , Like im banding someone a version of me I dont even know like myself . And then I sit there , Watching conversations die in my own hands , Wondering why no one tries harder - As if I didn't disappear first .
How do I expect connections
When I leave people on read ,
Type replies and delete them ,
And convince myself they won't understand anyway?
I say I want someone to stay ,
But I go quiet for days
And call it "just being tired"
Like it doesnt slowly push everyone out of my life .
Its not that I don't care -
Its that I don't know how to show it
Without feeling exposed ,
Like im banding someone a version of me
I dont even know like myself .
And then I sit there ,
Watching conversations die in my own hands ,
Wondering why no one tries harder -
As if I didn't disappear first .