More like Shiida doesnt know what she wanted. She said it herself instead of dread she is happy that Iruma remember her. Her royalty is on six fingers for now, but its kinda implied that she actually enjoying more "normal" live even in their first meeting in amusement park.
Ohhh noooo, i thought Shida is in Iruma's side naaa ╥﹏╥ all the protecting Iruma was just an act? My baby's hearts gonna break ╥﹏╥