That's rough buddy
If you haven't already express your frustration with him. If you have id call him out and set boundaries. If you chooses not to listen, do the right thing for your mental health and leave the dude, or a super secret second option. Be petty and do it back at him or slowly stop chatting ad much, stop doing things for him that he asks, etc to see if he notices and when he tells you, say you're doing the same thing as him.
Also if you want to play or talk too always can add people in discord or smth
This will sound cliche as fuck and cheesy but, life gets better. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, hell maybe not in the next 3 years but it does. Take it from someone who managed to get the courage to run from my abuser and now I live with my dad and wonderful step mom and I'm so so much happier than I ever was before. It just take courage bb gurl go for it
Hi! This person does not value you. You seem to know that. You need to value YOURSELF. If you keep letting other people diminish you, you could take longer to heal. It's ok to be alone, because you're never truly alone. You have yourself. If you value you, you'll surround yourself with people who value you, because you know your worth. Do what you believe is best for your mental state. I am single and have not gone insane yet
Thumbs up and hugs. Try to choose yourself more. I'm currently learning that too rn. Do what makes you feel good, invest your.time.only in.the.people that make you feel loved and cherished. Those, for whom you are a priority. It sounds like you're not a.priority to your bf and friends. Then do more stuff for you, meet new people. It'll also have a huge impact on your lvl of depression.
Wish you all the luck on your journey. I'm currently going through it too. It's tough, but it's worth it.
I've been where you are right now and it helped me a lot to value myself and my time more, like the others already mentioned. It's YOUR life, it's YOUR time. You have to be proud of yourself one day, not anyone else. If love you receive is tied to things you achieve or things you do, it's not real love. Real love has no condition and respects your boundaries. You may have never thought of boundaries but I can only encourage you to do so. Set boundaries what others can do and what they cannot do. If they never show up and leave you alone, they are not worth your time. If they only show up whenever they feel like it but you have to be available then, they are not worth it.
It may take time to learn to value yourself and your time more, but it's definitely worth it!
Also: if you have no good feeling about your significant other to keep promises, this may be because they don't show up enough but it may also be because you cannot trust them. Sometimes you have to trust others to keep their promises. You may will be disappointed sometimes but you will also learn whom you can trust because they proved it to you.
Love and relationships always include at least two people. Both of you have to make the effort. Start little and improve with time to learn to trust one another.
i have no one to talk to, so i decided to vomit it here..
so.. i made this promise to play a game with my bf before. and the time as promised came and i don't feel he'll keep his promise bc one and other things, so i canceled the whole shits i made this morning. idk what am i thinking, i just don't wanna feel abandoned by others.
i feel so sad, i need to see my terapist asap bc a lot of things triggered my depression. i feel kinda worthless bc he, she, and they choose something other than me while i always there. i'm very very tired of a lot of things.
for anyone who read this just give this comment a tumps up so i can thank y'all