I honestly agree with you. I get all empathy for him(the uke). They're both struggling with something but have their pride set up high (although it's mostly just juyeon). I just want them to talk it out now. But whatever Juyeon did to him in the past, he probably deserved it, but also the top took it way too far now. Once or twice was enough.
What jiwook did was completely unforgivable, and i hate violent angry entitled men like him, I hate that i feel empathy for hi even if hes fictional. I understand why someone would go crazy after going what juyeon (top) went through, any feeling I can describe with words is an understatement to what i would feel in his situation. The part that I hate is the cycle of constant suffering between the two. Nobody is benefiting, theres no real satisfaction or anything, its hard to watch because even if we cant see juyeons pov yet its clear hes suffering too. It irks me that someone sat down and wrote this, and people enjoy and romanticize it.
How are people reading this and actually pushing through just fine, it's so sad for both of them. I'm a nosy fuck so I caught up with this but now I just feel like crying. I think rapists should have it returned 10 fold, but to write a story like this is devastating. He doesn't even remember, they're both just suffering