Tbh..

I kinda home the mc kills himself, not because I hate him, just because I wanna see the ml feel the guilt and suffer knowing he caused all of that.

Rant incoming (sorta?)

Basically, I want it to play out like this.
Mom ends up dying from a heart attack or blood clot, Mc gets news and realizes he has nothing to live for at all and while ml is out mc breaks the camera, rips the blanket into fine peices and hangs him self only for ml to rush home after the camera breaks and be a few seconds to late.
Or mc finds the knife ml's mother used to kill herself and that night while there laying together, probably after sex, mc slits his wrist and ml wakes up to find him dead, just like how he did his mother byt this time in stead of him being emotionless about it he freaks out and desperately tries to save him but his body is already cold, its to late and he dies, and ml will live with that guilt, he'll spend his days locked up in his room, or with his guilt and craziness he'll also slit his wrist