I finished book 1 of passion and lord… the bus scene is bad like real bad and I rlly lov...

I finished book 1 of passion and lord… the bus scene is bad like real bad and I rlly loved passion like I am a passion and ilay glazer but after that… nopenopenopenope I genuinely felt like I wasted my time reading it because I felt like we lost all the progress of the cute moments earlier. But to others knowledge, in the second book and suite side stories, ilay changes a lot, he gets character development, spoiler: he almost killed taeui thinking it was his twin brother in the side stories and he genuinely has nightmares abt it because he can’t stand seeing tae being hurt and dead because of the character development he got. He becomes a lot more gentler and loving towards him but damn I am still mad at that rape scene because it was just brushed over, even after when tae explained wht happened after being brutally raped to the point he could not walk and literally could not even speak or move his fingers and lost his voice because he was uncontrollably sobbing w/o realizing. Ilay just stared at him w a look of realization and nodded, I feel like we gotta run it back and talk abt what tf happened