I’m sad this story makes me very sad but I can tell it’s well written

I’m trying really hard to read this, but I can’t stop bawling I’m really scared and sad. I’m taking a break in chapter 34 bc I miss Seungmin, and I think he’s dead, and Yuwon just makes me more sad every chapter. Like I don’t understand why everyone in this story sucks except Seungmin I really don’t like it. I’m just going to stick to the heartwarming stuff This psychological shi ain’t for me.