Okay, I know. I know this is just fiction. But... WHAT THE ACTUAL FU*K!? I am feeling a le...

Okay, I know. I know this is just fiction. But... WHAT THE ACTUAL FU*K!? I am feeling a level of immense frustration right now that I genuinely can't put into words, so I have to type it out.

Let’s start with Minhyuk. I can’t even blame him for how he acts. If I had to live in a world where the tiniest misstep results in instant death, where I’m forced to wake up and repeat a brutal cycle without being able to question anything, and where I slowly lose all memory of who I used to be before being shoved into this hellhole… yeah, I would have lost my mind too. But still! All he can do is follow the system’s rules like a puppet on a string. It’s that damn system’s fault! And whoever the "higher-ups" are for creating such a stupid, sadistic universe.

When Wooyeon showed up, the one person who could offer a lifeline—a moment of peace where he could eat real food and feel like a human being, even if he still had to keep up the composed act—it was both a blessing and a curse. Anyone would cling to that lifeline and go insane. But then Minhyuk realizes his mistake of harming Wooyeon in a previous life, and in his next one, he decides it’s better to stay away. But OF COURSE, they’re forced together by the system anyway. Neither of them can live a normal, free life.

I read this entire thing in one sitting. Yes, it’s a short story, so I was fully prepared for a quick read, but I even skipped all the smut scenes, desperately hoping that in the future chapters, we would get more. More about the system. More about how they could break free. I was hoping Minhyuk could finally show his true self to Wooyeon instead of having to maintain that cold, calculating CEO persona just to stay alive, even when he’s genuinely feeling all these emotions and falling in love. But no. Of course we couldn't get that because it's a short story.

DAMN, this story had so much potential to be a long-running epic!

I even started to think that maybe—just maybe—Wooyeon was also being forced into his super naive, submissive, cliché role by his own system, but it was never shown. After writing out this part of my frustrations, I do feel a little better. But STILL. AHHHHHHHH.

This story even made me rethink those cliché, toxic BL stories with no logic. It makes me wonder if the characters in those stories are actually being forced into their roles, because there is no way logic is thrown out the window every single chapter just so the MCs can have a reason to get together, right?

In the end, Minhyuk still can't love Wooyeon as his true self. He has to maintain this cold, calm facade, even though from our perspective, he's much more interesting and funny when he's himself. Sigh.

I can only hope—even if this is just fiction—that they find their happy ending. And maybe, just maybe, once the system gets what it wants from them and their story reaches its forced conclusion, it will finally leave Minhyuk alone. Then, he won't have to live on edge anymore, and he can finally, finally express himself freely to the man he loves.