High schoolers

I think one thing I love about this story is how well they potray high schoolers or teenagers that is coming of age depending on their mentality and upbringing.

Jaemin is a child who grew up under strict household, he wasn't allowed to do much and have had to potray himself as "the best" especially in front of his parents. Naturally, he would want to rebel, similar to his sister who couldn't handle the pressure of being in the house anymore.

What I love the most is his suspicions towards the world, because yes, when you grow up under these circumstances, you won't be able to trust people so easily. You're constantly on edge, suspicious of everyone's intentions, even if they mean well you can't differentiate between fake and genuine.

You fear being hurt so much you'd rather keep your guard up and pull away from everyone before you get hurt first. Of course, this differs from person to person but it is a trauma response.

I think this shows perfectly when Seungpyo suddenly asked him out; remember how in the beginning, their relationship wasn't built on trust. It was built on blackmail and Seungpyo messing around which is why we've gotten to this point where Jaemin just follows whatever the hell he wants whilst trying to protect himself as best he can.

Jaemin is constantly trying to get the higher ground not knowing to Seungpyo, their relationship has changed from transactional to genuine. But then again, imagine you have a guy who threatened you and told you to send him nude... I don't think you'll want to date him it's crazy how much patience Jaemin has tbh...

And then onto Seungpyo, he too is a child who doesn't know any better especially in the dating department. Which is probably why he doesn't realize this whole ordeal is kinda messy...

He has never had strict enough parents like Jaemin so he couldn't understand Jaemin's fear and anxiety playing it off as "he's cold" or "he's rude" which is most likely why he's pushy and at times inconsiderate.

I really want to see Seungpyo see Jaemin not just the person in school, but him in his entirety and become an actual safe space for him. Idk how the story will end, I saw someone saying the story ends in chapter 46 which is rather abrubt but I really hope they explore their relationship more especially the one around Jaemin's anxiety and trust issues.

Anyways thanks for coming to my Ted talk- just really wanted to Yap about Jaemin... I would get more into his parents but ah I believe I've talked too much... And I wish I can say more about Seungpyo but honestly, he's just a silly guy... He's like a normal high school kid who's trying to do his best while messing around yknow exploring like how we would when we were younger