I see some people confused on why he went back to the priest despite being raped by him when he was vulnerable, the mc has always used sexual pleasure as a way to forget or get over tough situations so when they (ml & mc) distanced for a bit he was hurting alot, him sleeping with the priest is a form of self destructiveness and his only way of coping with his past traumas and current overwhelming events.
Another thing i noticed is mc has ptsd (caused by his childhood) and it's very noticeable him killing someone whether by accident or on purpose he starts to have symptoms like a panic attack, severe anxiety, and guilt.
I see some people confused on why he went back to the priest despite being raped by him when he was vulnerable, the mc has always used sexual pleasure as a way to forget or get over tough situations so when they (ml & mc) distanced for a bit he was hurting alot, him sleeping with the priest is a form of self destructiveness and his only way of coping with his past traumas and current overwhelming events.
Another thing i noticed is mc has ptsd (caused by his childhood) and it's very noticeable him killing someone whether by accident or on purpose he starts to have symptoms like a panic attack, severe anxiety, and guilt.