this hits close to home. definitely, sumida is sick and the monster is its symbol. it's just so bleak how he chased for normalcy (and later, atonement) while trying to ignore the "monster" that was constantly there, and how, even with people caring for him, it never seems to go away. sumida's desperation peeking through his anger and violence was such a nice element, along with how he was trying to "rationalize" all of his course of action. this is a pretty accurate as to how depression works because unless you get treated, there's no cure, no matter what you do to cope. sumida knows how it will end and the last chapter says this: "... it's already been decided."
this is pretty short but i really liked it. what broke me was when sumida came to terms with his helplessness and came back home to see the people who cared for him repairing his home. it wasn't only the house that they were trying to repair but sumida himself, although, of course, this was not enough to help him. "i came back here to die... please... go home, everyone."
this hits close to home. definitely, sumida is sick and the monster is its symbol. it's just so bleak how he chased for normalcy (and later, atonement) while trying to ignore the "monster" that was constantly there, and how, even with people caring for him, it never seems to go away. sumida's desperation peeking through his anger and violence was such a nice element, along with how he was trying to "rationalize" all of his course of action. this is a pretty accurate as to how depression works because unless you get treated, there's no cure, no matter what you do to cope. sumida knows how it will end and the last chapter says this: "... it's already been decided."
this is pretty short but i really liked it. what broke me was when sumida came to terms with his helplessness and came back home to see the people who cared for him repairing his home. it wasn't only the house that they were trying to repair but sumida himself, although, of course, this was not enough to help him. "i came back here to die... please... go home, everyone."