If you hadn't included that first part in your comment, your take would have been totally fine.
It's perfectly valid not to want them to fall in love right away (in fact, I'd prefer that too !) And it's perfectly fine to enjoy dark, unhinged concepts in fiction, they're cool when well handled they make you think.
But saying that you like seeing Rian's broken, crushed state after he's been r*ped and worn down nonstop is honestly disgusting.
Well, because we're strangers on the internet you can say whatever you want, but you dont know what kind of life I have been through. You misunderstand that everyone who sees it this way likes it because theyre a sadist. I on the other hand like it because I can relate to it. No one is willing to explore the devastation and emptiness that this type of thing brings. However, this type of mediate let's me re-explore things that have happened to me, and gives me a character I can latch unto and see spring and back up despite it all.
Fiction is an exploration, sometimes into things the real world shuns and hides. Perhaps people will shun me again for liking it, even when they dont know why so.
I understand your explanation, and I wouldn't want to misread your motives. Also, I don't think you're necessarily enjoying it out of sadism.
That said, I still don't share this particular preference. To me, having gone through something awful would make me hope a character avoids that kind of suffering whenever possible. I can understand wanting fiction to explore trauma and devastation honestly, cause these themes are still very interesting to watch and discuss, but I personally find it a healthier and more compassionate mindset to root for characters to be spared that pain rather than wanting them to go through it.
So my issue isn't that you relate to the character's suffering. I understand why someone might connect with those themes.
I think where we differ is that I don't look forward to see them go through even more suffering, especially when it feels like it’s being prolonged rather than serving the story in a meaningful way at this point.
Like, the scene where Rian finally breaks is genuinely hard to take in. Even just his expression afterward was very saddening, with how the r*pe was disgustingly drawn-out, etc Like just how far everything had gone and how messed up it all became. So I can understand that a dark concept could be portrayed for many reasons but still find the whole thing utterly disgusting.
But nonetheless, I mean it without any hard feelings.
Hope you get better ~
Finally someone who actually likes this show for what it is
I like the broken exhausted look and the stark contrast of the morning. I also like that to Rian it's still just a job and he gets stuff done regardless.
I actually like that we arent on a "speedrun" to romance, which all the other BL's do already. I'm here for the slowburn, the plot, and how long it takes for each character to unmask their heavy facade.
Everytime people complain, I also want to reinforce my interest in this series. Honestly to me it is not like the other BL's, and Im happy the timeline seems long.
Often I feel the romance is too rushed, then the couples have absolutely zero problems ever. But these two have alot of problems and alot of challenges. That's what makes it interesting to me.
Morality in fiction is whatever, I am here to explore the dark concepts you cannot otherwise get in reality.