Oh my days I've been feeling so depressed lately because I feel like the time is passing b...

HOLY TWIN, I've been so fucking scared lately of how short life is the years are going by so quickly

I want to be a bird on my next life

This is something I struggled with too. Not because I was scared of death, but because I never thought I'd live past 18 and I was so afraid of missing out. Well, I did survive, barely. I'm not even religious, so I won't tell you what comes after, its just as you said, we simply don't know. And maybe that's the point. I like to think death sort of gives life its shape. If we had forever, we'd never learn the value of a single moment, yk? We're humans, even immortality wouldn't be enough for us greedy beings. A life without an ending would lose the very thing that makes it precious. Also imo, I don't think we're truly afraid of dying. I think we're afraid of leaving love behind, of being forgotten, of all the days we'll never get to see.

I also believe people don't only exist physically, they live on in the memories they leave behind. And humans ARE memories. We leave pieces of ourselves in other people, and maybe that's the closest thing to "forever" we all talk about .
We can spend our whole lives mourning an ending that hasn't come, or we can accept that not knowing is part of being alive. The end comes for all of us eventually. I'd rather spend my limited time living than grieving a future I can't change.

Live and love with everything in you without any restrictions because that's all we are here for, everything else is just a necessity. (Fuck this is way too long I'm sorry)

No please don't apologize for the long reply I really needed to read this and I appreciate this so much. I've been struggling with these thoughts for a while now and reading your perspective genuinely helped me a bit