Teh gap of hiatus is too long for me so I do not remember the plot anymore

I think i need to binge re read once to remeber the plot bc the hiatus ia for months i think I mix this story with the other one where also has younger Ml as lover forgot but there something and he pretent to be C hunter .. but that is not pararel universe where his weapon can be bird can be other creature forget the tittle .. but th MC is suicidical but he did random last world like binge watchung drama or hiking and baking cookies as last words of his death comrade I mix that manhwa with this but i forget that manhwa title anyone know the tittlw pls i think that manhwa on hiatus ..