The start gave me a pretty bad impression, and I almost dropped, but glad I didn't. It started with a down-bad uke for someone else and a rude playboy seme who seemed like he was bothering the uke for no reason and taking advantage of him, and it annoyed me so much, but, as the story progressed, a lot of things made sense, and even if they don’t excuse his behaviour, it made him a complex and realistic human character who has earned forgiveness.
Spoiler ahead: given his family circumstances, it was understandable why he had anger issues; what he needed was therapy, but he got his best friend’s betrayal instead. His reaction was pretty understandable, but because he had some humanity left, it left him traumatised with panic attacks, probably agoraphobia, anxiety, and he probably stopped standing up for himself cause he thought he was repenting/he would hurt others. I sincerely hope he had gone to therapy after he started dating uke, cause or else it’d leave him co-dependent on uke, and that he learnt that he can and should stand up for himself without resorting to violence so he does not feel guilty anymore. It is easy to hurt people, but it is not easy to understand the consequences and take responsibility, which is not the case with seme. I wanted to see him falling from his high horse and suffering and begging for mercy, but he turned out to be a harmless lost kid who has suffered enough; he just needed to be more honest with someone who will understand, believe, accept and support him and will not harm him. The way he learnt from his mistakes and did better again and again is impressive.
He learnt to do better in bed, fell in love and became a puppy but not in a controlling, manipulative way, was honest about his feelings, let go of the person he loved without bothering them, when he got the green signal still waited patiently, tried to go out of his comfort zone to impress his love. On the other hand, the uke turned out to be unexpectedly strong, both physically and mentally. Letting go of his love, understanding and giving the seme support and reassurance, confessing his feelings bravely, etc showed his cool side, and I came to love him a lot too instead of feeling sympathy. The only unhealthy thing when they started dating was jealousy, but well, they match each other there, I guess. The progress of the relationship may appear unrealistic to people, but I found it pretty normal and not rushed at all. Dunno if I’ll reread, but this definitely left me wanting more.
The start gave me a pretty bad impression, and I almost dropped, but glad I didn't. It started with a down-bad uke for someone else and a rude playboy seme who seemed like he was bothering the uke for no reason and taking advantage of him, and it annoyed me so much, but, as the story progressed, a lot of things made sense, and even if they don’t excuse his behaviour, it made him a complex and realistic human character who has earned forgiveness.
Spoiler ahead: given his family circumstances, it was understandable why he had anger issues; what he needed was therapy, but he got his best friend’s betrayal instead. His reaction was pretty understandable, but because he had some humanity left, it left him traumatised with panic attacks, probably agoraphobia, anxiety, and he probably stopped standing up for himself cause he thought he was repenting/he would hurt others. I sincerely hope he had gone to therapy after he started dating uke, cause or else it’d leave him co-dependent on uke, and that he learnt that he can and should stand up for himself without resorting to violence so he does not feel guilty anymore. It is easy to hurt people, but it is not easy to understand the consequences and take responsibility, which is not the case with seme. I wanted to see him falling from his high horse and suffering and begging for mercy, but he turned out to be a harmless lost kid who has suffered enough; he just needed to be more honest with someone who will understand, believe, accept and support him and will not harm him. The way he learnt from his mistakes and did better again and again is impressive.
He learnt to do better in bed, fell in love and became a puppy but not in a controlling, manipulative way, was honest about his feelings, let go of the person he loved without bothering them, when he got the green signal still waited patiently, tried to go out of his comfort zone to impress his love. On the other hand, the uke turned out to be unexpectedly strong, both physically and mentally. Letting go of his love, understanding and giving the seme support and reassurance, confessing his feelings bravely, etc showed his cool side, and I came to love him a lot too instead of feeling sympathy. The only unhealthy thing when they started dating was jealousy, but well, they match each other there, I guess. The progress of the relationship may appear unrealistic to people, but I found it pretty normal and not rushed at all. Dunno if I’ll reread, but this definitely left me wanting more.