it's kinda fascinating to see how even yuwon wasn't able to change dohun back then, because dohun is so set on the idea only him can make yuwon happy. it seems like he genuinely thought abt the good ppl in his life, but he refuses to accept any variation to his views, bc then it will be like admitting that he isn't necessary for yuwon's happiness and break his happy soulmates fairytale (and it doesn't help that their abusers tend to validate his view).
but unlike yuwon's, I think his father's influence goes deeper, not only bc of the brainwashing (but ofc that plays a large role), but also that dohun actually liked the idea of revenge, bc it made yuwon happy, and bc it allowed him to completely eliminate others in the way of their happiness. dohun is scary but kinda behaves like a child in the way he picks up what others tell him. like dohun following his father's advice in an exact way and following yuwon wish for retribution in the exact way too, even his father was surprised by that lol
his desire to protect yuwon is childlike too, it's rooted in an innocent wish to be loved by someone, but to me it seems like he isn't even aware that he just wants to be loved. his extreme actions are part of who he is now since that's the environment his family cultivated, even if dohun was in the basement he still learned the exact behavior he should have to succeed in the family by abuse and by seeing how his brother was treated.
for someone like yuwon who was raised with empathy (before his parents died), I can see why loving dohun is suffocating. having someone say they killed for u is too much for anyone and it haunts him all the way to his adult years. he completely erased the memory of himself wishing for their death and dohun confessing he did it bc of him... yuwon just can't believe it in his mind that someone he loves would do something like this because of *him*. dohun was a large part of why he dissociated so hard too, and then u get the multiple head traumas he's had then it's no wonder he just forgot
I love this terrifying aspect of their relationship. ultimately they were both kids with issues that couldn't have been solved by each other, even if dohun tried. it's not pretty and confirms to me that they were doomed even from the beginning. this wasn't something that could be changed with just love and I like that
it's kinda fascinating to see how even yuwon wasn't able to change dohun back then, because dohun is so set on the idea only him can make yuwon happy. it seems like he genuinely thought abt the good ppl in his life, but he refuses to accept any variation to his views, bc then it will be like admitting that he isn't necessary for yuwon's happiness and break his happy soulmates fairytale (and it doesn't help that their abusers tend to validate his view).
but unlike yuwon's, I think his father's influence goes deeper, not only bc of the brainwashing (but ofc that plays a large role), but also that dohun actually liked the idea of revenge, bc it made yuwon happy, and bc it allowed him to completely eliminate others in the way of their happiness. dohun is scary but kinda behaves like a child in the way he picks up what others tell him. like dohun following his father's advice in an exact way and following yuwon wish for retribution in the exact way too, even his father was surprised by that lol
his desire to protect yuwon is childlike too, it's rooted in an innocent wish to be loved by someone, but to me it seems like he isn't even aware that he just wants to be loved. his extreme actions are part of who he is now since that's the environment his family cultivated, even if dohun was in the basement he still learned the exact behavior he should have to succeed in the family by abuse and by seeing how his brother was treated.
for someone like yuwon who was raised with empathy (before his parents died), I can see why loving dohun is suffocating. having someone say they killed for u is too much for anyone and it haunts him all the way to his adult years. he completely erased the memory of himself wishing for their death and dohun confessing he did it bc of him... yuwon just can't believe it in his mind that someone he loves would do something like this because of *him*. dohun was a large part of why he dissociated so hard too, and then u get the multiple head traumas he's had then it's no wonder he just forgot
I love this terrifying aspect of their relationship. ultimately they were both kids with issues that couldn't have been solved by each other, even if dohun tried. it's not pretty and confirms to me that they were doomed even from the beginning. this wasn't something that could be changed with just love and I like that