First time I feel this invested for a theme and plot like this

I like the fact that the top's character is written so incredibly complex that I understand he's doing something wrong but instead of getting mad at him I feel bad for him instead. Didn't feel this with the ML of other abusive BL like Jinx so I dropped that one. Also, Nanjo deserves someone better. Idk if he and Mokyeon deserve each other, but neither of them deserve Sunhwa at all, the guy's just using both of them. I will stop at ch. 30, end of season 1, and let this marinate, I hope, to something better.