Re-reading it again now, I remembered why. It’s agonizing reading the story. I feel for so much for Soongap. I hate Pilgeon so much. I can never forgive him for everything he did. Sure you could sympathize with all his trauma having just witnessed death at a young age, and why he yearns to be with soongap as he grew. But man, his obsession is so warped that he could never understand soongap’s needs for space and why he’s so uncomfortable with him.
I hated that he never got the punishment he deserved from everything he did to Soongap. But then again, Pilgeon already does that to himself. And as much as i’d want him to live torturing himself, knowing that the only person he “loved” resents him and is in a loving and healthy relationship with Bongchun, him remembering- would mean searching nonstop for soongap. Having amnesia was probably for the best for Soongap’s safety. I’d prefer it if he died painfully but then again Soongap will start to blame himself. So, surviving with amnesia it is.
Enough ranting! Everytime I see soongap and bongchun having fun, I genuinely feel joy lol. And I probably mentioned this in my old comment from years ago, but seeing Soongap’s eyes getting less dark and having more sparkle throughout the story, showed how much healthier (physically and mentally) he was getting because of Bongchun. I wish there were more chapters exploring Soongap’s grief after losing Mojil. It felt like there was so much smut each chapter that he didn’t have enough time to really process all the baggage.
Re-reading it again now, I remembered why. It’s agonizing reading the story. I feel for so much for Soongap.
I hate Pilgeon so much. I can never forgive him for everything he did.
Sure you could sympathize with all his trauma having just witnessed death at a young age, and why he yearns to be with soongap as he grew. But man, his obsession is so warped that he could never understand soongap’s needs for space and why he’s so uncomfortable with him.
I hated that he never got the punishment he deserved from everything he did to Soongap. But then again, Pilgeon already does that to himself. And as much as i’d want him to live torturing himself, knowing that the only person he “loved” resents him and is in a loving and healthy relationship with Bongchun, him remembering- would mean searching nonstop for soongap. Having amnesia was probably for the best for Soongap’s safety. I’d prefer it if he died painfully but then again Soongap will start to blame himself. So, surviving with amnesia it is.
Enough ranting! Everytime I see soongap and bongchun having fun, I genuinely feel joy lol. And I probably mentioned this in my old comment from years ago, but seeing Soongap’s eyes getting less dark and having more sparkle throughout the story, showed how much healthier (physically and mentally) he was getting because of Bongchun.
I wish there were more chapters exploring Soongap’s grief after losing Mojil. It felt like there was so much smut each chapter that he didn’t have enough time to really process all the baggage.