i'm learning arabic (the other option was french and i already attempted that like thrice and i never made any progress with it) and it is really eating into my free time but for some reason i always come out feeling calm and steady after my sessions. i'm having a bit of fun even tho i don't really get anything what's going on. anyways it really helped me with my phone addiction. well a porn addiction is different to a phone addiction but as long as you're having fun, these addictions aren't really that desirable anymore.
also should i try learning vietnamese?
I support carrotpie's opinion, I think trying to learn a language that you're genuinely interested in might help, it will keep you engaged and i think learning a new language from zero is fun and productive, even if u use your phone to get sources, at least you're using it for a good cause and time passes without you noticing it when you're trying to figure the pronunciation, writing, grammar and stuff, it's like a rabbit hole , you keep learning and you feel a sense of fulfillment and satisfaction as you progress, it's honestly so fun tho it may be tiring and frustrating at times
It used to give you a rush, didn't it? But you chased it so many times that even it lost its meaning. That's the curse of every high,you keep feeding it until it no longer feeds you.
If your life feels eventless why don't you engage yourself in some kinda sports like if you're not afraid of heights you can try paragliding, skydiving, or bungee jumping. If heights aren't your thing, try skating, drifting, or any sport that pushes your limits.
Trust me, a real adrenaline rush silences every thought. For a few fleeting moments, all that exists is your heartbeat.
oh shi shakespeare over here ... thank you too, (also ty to carrotpie and airplane) I used to be a big fan of skating but at some point of my life I started going downhill and ever since then dropped here , I'll try to get back to skating, ice skating, learning languages, drawing bla bla really just anything that'll pass the time, y'all r great for answering

I dunno if I should be happy or sad that my porn addiction is disappearing
like yay bad habit erased but now my life is so eventless like I have nothing to do I'm so bored
questioning if it really ever was an addiction, or just an interest