Maybe I'm getting off-topic, but when I saw the MC get hard while thinking about having sex with the ML's father in toilet ,it reminded me of all of this.
Ik you aren’t asking this info but it’s true! My ex used to rape me and was violent, I cried every-time he forces himself on me—but after I reported him and was able to file for a restraining order, and was finally free—I kinda started missing his toxicity and when he forces himself on me. Every time I get in a new relationship, I get bored because they aren’t like him, sometimes, I wish that I would experience getting rape by him again. And therapy doesn’t work too, to the point you just have to lie that you’re healed.
I'm sorry to hear that. But honestly speaking, forced sex and extreme violence are really not good, becus you never know when a partner might lose control and cross the line. However, if this is something you enjoy now, you should tell your new partner about your preference and try BDSM instead. It can be a bit extreme, but at least both partners consent to it. Either way, please still be careful.
Tbh ,every time I read a manhwa with rape & violence scenes, I used to wonder if anyone in real life could actually enjoy that. But after seeing things on X, I realized I was wrong—there are actually people who enjoy that kind of rough and painful like that.