honestlyy, he's so self absorbed he just can't see the same way garam sees things so just shuts down wat garam has to say. n tht's so in line w the freq quote in the manhwa, smth along the lines of they r bound to hurt eachother becus they r different ppl in the end (n i've noticed the author's twted tht several times too). n also heejae seems to think tht his actions convey how he feels 'y don't u still understand how much u mean to me' (fg which ch) but doesn realise these things act hv to be communicated like garam's not a mind reader pls he's also his own person who has his own thoughts n opinions
Exactly!!! In a way Heejae is self sabotaging their relationship with his inability to compromise. Yes, he has changed since meeting Garam, but Garam is the main one compromising in general. Heejae is barely meeting Garam half way. Unlike Garam who is trying to wholeheartedly understand Heejae and his problems with loneliness, Heejae just doesn't reciprocate that level of energy. Like Garam literally plays him music to connect with him, comforts him, looks deeper than other people... Heejae really does the bare minimum and probably not even that. He's giving crumbs for Garam to work with
!!! culdn agree more. heejae wuld prolly beef w us saying he poured everythin for his success, but for their relationship ?? gen wat has he rly done besides give garam sm good dicking n affection /hj. in terms of their love towards eachother i think tht n their emotional bond r fully cemented, so i doubt they're on the verge of falling out of love or smth but the main issue is the disconnect w their minds/ perception of the world !! i mean they clearly care abt eachother a lot n want to be happy together but love alone can't fix thingssss. eventually he'll hv to meet garam halfway otherwise yh, if he continues to be so ignorant then garam's bound to reach a breaking point n he just might say byebye fr
Heejae obviously cares for Garam a lot, but the way he's constantly pushing and pushing for Garam to be "big" is what will ultimately drive them apart. Garam knows that the mark that Heejae has on him is too deep to decipher where he ends and Heejae begins, which is causing him to have an identity crisis. Even when he wants to push away and create distance between him and Heejae, he's always drawn back to Heejae's every word and continues to orbit him.
Tbh all i can hope for is for Garam to create concrete boundaries. From the beginning Garam has appreciated the little things (small concert halls, holiday performances, lesser known musicians, etc...), but Heejae refuses to see that the "little things" matter. Heejae needs to be understanding to what Garam deems as meaningful and allow him freedom to fall and to fly on his own.