why

I always wonder why I‘m not able to make any friends or date someone. Everyone in my life seems to be in a relationship or have at least one best friend. As for me, none of this has been the case since I was small.
Recently, I tried a few dating apps but every guy just wants to hook up or is looking for a special kind of person that I’m simply not. Swiping trough profiles make me feel like I‘m in the supermarket.
Tomorrow, I‘m going on a "date" with a kind guy I met on Bumble. He’s the very first person I’ve ever matched with and we have so much in common. That‘s why it felt like fate for me. We both exchanged socials and texted for what felt like hours on several days. But the more we texted and the more I talked about myself, he seemed to get more and more uninterested. He replied less constantly and his messages were getting shorter and had less emotion in it.
Sometimes, I believe it‘s better to be alone or that some people like me are simply just not made for love. That‘s why I wouldn‘t mind if tomorrow‘s date doesn‘t go well.

Don‘t mind me writing this here ;) I usually use chatgpt for collecting my thoughts but saying this on here feels like I‘m actually talking to a real person who might feel the same way.