Like yeah his choice was stupid and shortsighted, but he did it because he's too loyal to Nain. Like the one female attendant whose always with Nain is loyal, but despite the truth being revealed she continued to serve without much reservation. On the other hand, Rue has literally given up everything for Nain. As a servant of Nain, he can't marry or leave to live his own life ever again, but he sticks by Nain regardless. And when the truth is revealed, he feels regret and guilt so deep he pushes himself towards the deep end to serve Nain forever.
Again, Rue is doing something stupid and shortsighted, but he's doing the only thing he can conceptualize to serve Nain. And it's heartbreaking for Nain to tell Rue that he's not allowed to die until Nain forgives him. Nain is so desperate to protect those around him that he's actually losing connections with others. Because Rue would sacrifice his life in a heartbeat, Nain has to push him away to ensure he doesn't do it. And Nain can only ever push others away, because the more attached he is, the more it hurts to lose them. Nain can't trust in Amon and the main priest guy, the guards and servants are a second away from being killed, and the people are so conditioned into accepting violence, that they have no problem dying for Amon and Nain. Then Amon does his best to have Nain become used to death, repeatedly traumatizing Nain and taking away those he gets close to.
Like yeah his choice was stupid and shortsighted, but he did it because he's too loyal to Nain. Like the one female attendant whose always with Nain is loyal, but despite the truth being revealed she continued to serve without much reservation. On the other hand, Rue has literally given up everything for Nain. As a servant of Nain, he can't marry or leave to live his own life ever again, but he sticks by Nain regardless. And when the truth is revealed, he feels regret and guilt so deep he pushes himself towards the deep end to serve Nain forever.
Again, Rue is doing something stupid and shortsighted, but he's doing the only thing he can conceptualize to serve Nain. And it's heartbreaking for Nain to tell Rue that he's not allowed to die until Nain forgives him. Nain is so desperate to protect those around him that he's actually losing connections with others. Because Rue would sacrifice his life in a heartbeat, Nain has to push him away to ensure he doesn't do it. And Nain can only ever push others away, because the more attached he is, the more it hurts to lose them. Nain can't trust in Amon and the main priest guy, the guards and servants are a second away from being killed, and the people are so conditioned into accepting violence, that they have no problem dying for Amon and Nain. Then Amon does his best to have Nain become used to death, repeatedly traumatizing Nain and taking away those he gets close to.
I just feel bad for Nain and Rue ╥﹏╥