She's literally at odds with herself. One side, the one we knew, thinks of Lukas and Artoria as her own kids. Of course she doesn't want them to suffer and die. On the other hand, she already promised herself to do anything to achieve her goal. And that meant lying to herself, her comrades, and sacrificing her loved ones. Lalawag didn't want to do this, but everything within her knew this was the best option. It's tragic to have a gift where you can't even trust yourself, ya'know?
She's literally at odds with herself. One side, the one we knew, thinks of Lukas and Artoria as her own kids. Of course she doesn't want them to suffer and die. On the other hand, she already promised herself to do anything to achieve her goal. And that meant lying to herself, her comrades, and sacrificing her loved ones. Lalawag didn't want to do this, but everything within her knew this was the best option.
It's tragic to have a gift where you can't even trust yourself, ya'know?