The amount of "Mokyeon should move on" and "What Mokyeon's doing is so stupid" comments I'm seeing is sending me. There's a lot more depth to this than just "oh they're stupid." From all that we've read, I believe Mokyeon has untreated, undiagnosed BPD. His coping mechanism is to bottle it all up and have occasional outbursts. Mokyeon went untreated because he had no one in his life to notice that pattern, and that haunts me ngl. Self harm acts like a literal circuit breaker for him. Physical pain, like yeeting out that piercing or starving himself, is much more palatable than the emotional pain he has been carrying. I don't know how many of you have read Yang Ilwoo and Me, but in that story, Yang Ilwoo wants to off himself. He knows that afterward, his body will just be another unclaimed corpse that the government cremates, so he wants to get a diploma first. To him, that diploma is an anchor, "Look, I was a person, I accomplished something. I was here." Similarly, to Mokyeon, Nanjo is that anchor. He wants Nanjo to be the last person to see him, not because he is a super calculative, malicious manipulator, but because he desperately needs a witness to acknowledge his existence, "Look, I was a person." Imo Mokyeon and Ilwoo are so similar, both are "invisible children"
The amount of "Mokyeon should move on" and "What Mokyeon's doing is so stupid" comments I'm seeing is sending me. There's a lot more depth to this than just "oh they're stupid."
From all that we've read, I believe Mokyeon has untreated, undiagnosed BPD. His coping mechanism is to bottle it all up and have occasional outbursts. Mokyeon went untreated because he had no one in his life to notice that pattern, and that haunts me ngl. Self harm acts like a literal circuit breaker for him. Physical pain, like yeeting out that piercing or starving himself, is much more palatable than the emotional pain he has been carrying.
I don't know how many of you have read Yang Ilwoo and Me, but in that story, Yang Ilwoo wants to off himself. He knows that afterward, his body will just be another unclaimed corpse that the government cremates, so he wants to get a diploma first. To him, that diploma is an anchor, "Look, I was a person, I accomplished something. I was here."
Similarly, to Mokyeon, Nanjo is that anchor. He wants Nanjo to be the last person to see him, not because he is a super calculative, malicious manipulator, but because he desperately needs a witness to acknowledge his existence, "Look, I was a person."
Imo Mokyeon and Ilwoo are so similar, both are "invisible children"