Heyy,i dont know who you are but i understand that feeling,when you know you have no one else,when all your friends start not calling you anymore, when you see others enjoy their lives meanwhile you are just letting it pass by,but ending something so precious for others that are missing out a precious soul like yours?Its their fault because they dont appreciate you enough, their immaturity doesnt define your true value,it doesnt define who you are or how much you matter,take time for yourself, do something that you like,it could be writing,it could be go out for a walk,it could be by something that you wanted for a long time,it could be a comfort food,whatever makes you feel Better,do IT,not for others,not for anyone, just for YOU. And start making space for the Blessings that are coming in your way,if you keep your focus on how its going now,you will miss chapters in your life that you could never imagine living,think about the rain,the rain comes to purify the earth and then the most beautiful flowers bloom from those grey days,like the shells that even if they have a missing piece and are broken,they still are beautiful,look at the ocean living between the calm and the storms of the Life,but it still follow the natural flow and the waves of It,start following the flow and abandon yourself through the waves of this life,and you are gonna be like that too,the flower that survived a storm and it stayed still,in the middle of nowhere and everything,start making space for everything and you will finally live for the first time in your Life,not just existing,God Bless you and guide you,may you see the most beautiful rainbow at your window shine upon you,its not easy now,but dont let the future version of yourself be interrupted for how its going NOW,your future self one day its gonna smile at this and you will look at yourself and see that you were capable of surviving,you still are capable of crafting the most negative things into something beautiful,wish you all the best:))
Thank you so much for your kind words I don’t know it’s just sometimes it’s difficult sometimes and sometimes feels too heavy basically I have no one to talk to so I rely on Manhwa and mangas but even when they start showing the reality it’s just it becomes so hopeless sometimes. But yeah you are right maybe not now maybe someday this storm inside me will calm down and I’ll see the Sunrays I’ll try more to remain positive thank you so much

If Mokyeon dies I’m slitting my wrists too I’m done with this world anyway sure it’s going to happy after I die too. I can’t with this lonely life