I find people misunderstand Yuri’s initial characterization. His love for Xinlu isn’t sexual or even romantic(at least initially). I’d hardly even call it love but infatuation and fascination, he finds him beautiful in the way you find a painting beautiful. It’s why he he’s genuinely content with just watching him. Only when Xinlu starts pushing his boundaries is when he’s questioning himself.
He hasn’t loved Xinlu since he was a kid or had any affection towards him. He’s had feelings for other people this entire time(e.g Annette) and it’s why he told him he’s straight. These feelings have never been sexual/romantic until now
I find people misunderstand Yuri’s initial characterization. His love for Xinlu isn’t sexual or even romantic(at least initially). I’d hardly even call it love but infatuation and fascination, he finds him beautiful in the way you find a painting beautiful. It’s why he he’s genuinely content with just watching him. Only when Xinlu starts pushing his boundaries is when he’s questioning himself.
He hasn’t loved Xinlu since he was a kid or had any affection towards him. He’s had feelings for other people this entire time(e.g Annette) and it’s why he told him he’s straight. These feelings have never been sexual/romantic until now