I don’t get it… They both definitely love each other. What’s their problem?

from how I see it, MC thinks he's holding ML back because 1. yushin group declined so he didn't have any more money to provide him 2. he's an alpha 3. he thinks this is all just one sided love (when it is so far from the truth) and he thinks he'll make ml weirded out if he expressed his affection but man went as far as to propose to him?? and ml is getting all these mixed signals from mc. mc says he didn't like him, but he's always in a rut around him? mc is always providing money for him etc but he's never transparent about his feelings so ML feels like he's being used and i get it honestly. and mc

so tldr they're both insecure but mostly jaeha