I am sorry you had to go through something like that, and I hope you doing better nowadays. (づ ᴗ _ᴗ)づ♡
Your experience is a good example how people try to protect themself from more disappointment. You can't believe genuine affection anymore, and expect retaliation in exchange. Asel is very similar in this aspect.
thanks for the message (▰˘◡˘▰) still recovering and flares still happen...but after going through psychotherapy while doing physical therapy, i think i'm in a better place...one thing that has remained though is that i only geniunely accept help from specific people...other folks still make my skin crawl
on another note, i read somewhere that the story will get better...i hope we get to see that soon (づ￣ ³￣)づ
i have never been pregnant but i havd had multiple medical scares that require assistance from others..because i have always been shunned when it was still manageable, i barely ask for help when it gets worse...even when the people near me indirectly offer help like what the ML is doing, it all seems performative and insincere for me...it always felt like i became invalid and a burden to them...i hated myself for that