I read the chapter and didn’t get that vibe though? I hope your interpretation is right
Then you didn't understand it-
Spoiler(since I understand Korean, I will explain what happened clearly!)
So, after 204, Garam stopped talking to HJ (silent treatment), they meet with that woman (HJ's teacher). Garam talked with her, and she kind of guessed that hj did something and that they had a fight- yet she said, "I don't see hatred on your face but sadness and disappointment. You still believe in him, dont you?" and that hj changed a lot, Garam confessed to her that even though HJ changed a lot, he still wanted more than that. it went on, and they went for a walk where the teacher asked HJ if he knew about Orpheus and why he lost Eurydice once again. Hj said "yeah, because he didnt listen and looked back" to which she said "why do you think he did that, when he loved so much so to step on hell for her- just bcz he broke that one promise, he lost here- why do you think so- it wasnt hard to not look back to save her, rather- it was easy to give in to the urge of looking back. It means its much harder to go against oneself than to love someone- so, HJ- if your feelings are truly sincere, you must try harder. Even if you are a blade, to change yourself -just stopping/dulling it isnt enough," to which Heejae said, "I'll have to break the blade". it went on concert day- Han was still giving him the silent treatment; finally, during his performance, HJ (ofc) gave his best performance. His monologues were: -"What did I do that was so wrong? To make you defy me? I've lived like this my entire life.
You know what kind of person I am, don't you? So was what I did really something worth getting this angry over? Words can be dressed up however you like. Whether they're lies or sincere.
But music isn't like that. Because it contains the soul. And you're a musician—you can feel it, can't you?! You can read my soul in my music. You can understand me without me explaining anything! That's why you stayed by my side. That was enough for you.
So why, all of a sudden, do you want me to become human?"
Right after the performance ended, hj didn't stop- he played Chopin Ballad 4, while his knife was finally stripping away- the same one which cut Garam. He was going against himself bcz, he doesn't want to lose his Eurydice.
But i don't understand why he played chopin ballad 4
Because that was the song which, at the beginning, made Han realise how lonely Heejae really was. You could say it was their love song.
girll omgg chopin is literally heejae’s love song for garam
THE KNIFE HAS FINALLY STRIPPED AWAY!! HJ IS CHANGING- FOR GARAM! HEEJAE STRIPPED AWAY THE BLADE! HJ FINALLY BROKE THE BLADE!! (ugh, I love chopin) Ahem- sorry, I am just crying now. But- for his- EURYDICE, HE ISNT LOOKING BACK AND IS GOING AGAINST HIMSELF!! TO BECOME A HUMAN, FOR GARAM'S SAKE!!!!!