I read some of the novel

I read some of the novel bc I couldn’t wait but I have never felt so uncomfortable Idk if the author intended it but it kinda feels like grooming.

The mc always feels fear everytime they have sex and he’s constantly crying bc he feels uncomfortable with what the ml is saying/doing during sex. There are MULTIPLE sex scenes where they’re doing stuff, the ml says smth slightly vulgar, mc starts crying, ml comforts him like AN ACTUAL CHILD, and then they go back to doing it. I kept on reading bc I thought maybe it’s just bc this is the first time mc has been physical with someone and he’ll get used to it. No.

The author also made the mc really innocent even though he’s like 20 (idk his real age but he’s in his first year of college). And bc of this, everytime you read them having sex, you just feel bad. The author always somehow makes it a point that mc is inexperienced or confused while they have sex.

There was even this one scene that felt so off putting where the mc’s stomach was hurting during school bc the ml came inside the night before and couldn’t get all of it out. Mc went home and ml asked him if he’s feeling sick and mc said yeah my stomach is hurting i’m gonna take some medicine. Ml asked what medicine? contraceptive pills? and mc is like no?? but the ml was insisting that it’s contraceptive pills and that mc might be pregnant and then pretended to be mad when mc was saying no and walked to his room. mc goes after him bc he feels guilty for some reason and the ml basically coerces him to give him a blowjob. AND the mc was saying “no this is weird, why would i put my mouth there” like how do you not know what a blowjob is at your age? ml cums, mc starts crying and then ml apologizes and admits he was just pretending to be mad so mc can come in his room. Like does that not sound like some form of grooming???

My last straw was when ml decided by himself to roleplay with mc with ml as the pilot and mc as the flight attendant. Almost the entire time, mc was so confused. He was supposed to call ml captain apparently but kept on calling him hyung and ml kept on verbally reprimanded him for doing that when he’s supposed to be captain rn. then ml said that “it’ll go by faster if you just play along” (IS THAT NOT A CRAZY THING TK SAY??) and then mc is still confused while they’re fucking and calling him hyung and then he remembers that comment and starts calling him captain. They finished and mc starts crying AGAIN and thought to himself that he needs to leave and that’s where I stopped.

I’m usually fine with age gaps but the author has made it so apparent that the ml is so mature and the mc is soooo innocent even though he’s literally an adult and should know some stuff to some extent. And it could’ve been fine if THE MC WOULD STOP CRYING AND THE ML WOULD STOP MOVING WEIRD WHEN ITS OBVIOUS THE MC DOESNT KNOW ANYTHING. I dont think i can read anymore of the novel. Someone pls tell me that it gets better or if it is always gonna be like this whenever they have sex